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Author: larry@lgjaffe.com

Mama Told Me

Mama Told Me

My mama told me

sticks and stones

may break my bones

that words

will never harm me

 

But the scars that words leave

are harsher than the deepest wounds

 

The scars that words leave

annihilate me to depths of my soul

 

The scars that words leave

scream at the unknown

 

The scars that words leave

shout for vengeance

 

They are just words

I tell myself

as I cry myself to sleep

 

These words are not defenseless

I will have my way

 

Another word another lesion

Another word another lesson

MY YIDDISCHE MAMA

Today as my 96-year-old mother

sinks into dementia,

her Yiddish sayings bounce

around in my head.

 

It is as if I am suddenly bewitched,

With her Yiddishness.

And I don’t even know if that is a word

 

All I know is that with every step,

she takes away from her life,

another Yiddish phrase sticks in my head.

 

My mother would say plotz a lot.

I thought it meant to die,

as she was often screaming at me

at us and saying we should just plotz

 

I was wrong plotz,

has nothing to do with death.

It means to split, crack, burst, or explode but not die.

It further connotes to be overcome with emotion,

give way to excitement, anger, or delight.

 

I wonder now –

How did I come to that deadly conclusion?

 

She would often say we were farshtunkener.

That word speaks for itself – it means stinky.

She would call us shtunks which was even worse –

we were stinkers and nasty and smelly.

When things were untenable for her

She would burst out that we were fakakta –

That is lousy, messed up, and or ridiculous.

 

When we were getting too big for our britches

She would exclaim!

“Who do you think you are Chaim Yankel?”

I had no idea who Chaim Yankel was or is.

 

I just knew I did not want to be like him.

 

It wasn’t till I was fifty years old

that I discovered

there was no such person.

 

Chaim was a figment of my mother’s,

and every mother’s imagination

Chaim was a nonentity, a nobody.

 

He was just another poor Joe.

 

However, there was another guy,

whose name sprung to her lips,

and to whom we were often compared.

His name will go down in our personal infamy,

the strangest and most notorious of them all

– this was the renown Ish Kabibble

a comedian of moderate fame

and to his credit he also played the cornet

rather well I am told.

 

I guess she was concerned about us,

as Ish Kabibble derived from a mock-Yiddish

expression, Ische ga bibble meaning don’t worry.

 

And lest I forget there was yet another gentleman

airing on our family’s airwaves, none other

than the irresistible Moishe Kapoyr

who despite his fictional origins

loomed large in our childish minds.

 

Mom proclaimed this garish title

upon us when we were too set in our ways.

The Moishe demeanor was full of contrary

and stubborn oppositeness.

We were doomed forever to a fate

we never understood.

 

One of her more stranger phrases

Involved a teapot as she shrieked

when we were bothering her

“Stop hocking me a chainik.”

What did banging on a teapot,

have to do with anything.

This I did not know

and just resolved to leave her be.

 

When the weather got too hot

in the house she kept spotless

she would be schvitzing,

a word that speaks sweating

without translation.

 

When all else failed the final

disapprobation she called us

the self-defined word meshuggeneh

we were all at the same time

nuts – crazy – insane,

which perfectly defined our existence.

 

My mother had tragedy written on her face,

when pronouncing these Yiddish expletives.

 

But in reality, to her we were her yingele her boys.

 

 

© 2023 LGjaffe

 

Soul Free

SOUL FREE
In Honor of Human Trafficking Day & Month
I am not a slave.
I do not need
to be freed
to be free.
– No one can own a soul.
I am not a slave.
Why should
I be shackled
to the name
of my keepers?
I am not a slave.
I cannot be
owned, rented
or leased.
I am not goods
or chattel.
I am not a slave.
I will not be
pigeonholed
or stereotyped
by Hollywood
or my own fears.
I am not a slave.
I will challenge
my tears
pledge allegiance
to the people
for which I stand.
– No one can own a soul that knows it is free.

The Very Action of Be

THE VERY ACTION OF BE

Granting of beingness
Is not just a pose
It is life itself

Poured from sacred hearts
It is instant combustion
Of one to another

It is the ultimate validation
Of supreme existence

 

It is the Holiest
Of Holy

Go about your business
But remember to

Grant, Give, Confer, Award, Bestow

The very existence of another
And their right to live
Survive and coexist

It is the Holiest
Of Holy

 

Promise Me This

PROMISE ME THIS

Promise me this
That you will not
succumb to the
propaganda Machine

That you will not let
rhetoric rule your life

Promise me this
That you will look at every situation
objectively and not let emotions
cloud your judgments

This I ask of you
This I ask of myself

Lies are destructive
falsehoods tantamount
to treason

Promise me this
That you will
never be swayed
by someone else’s
emotional outbursts
they are like wildfire
and bullets

Promise me this
That you will be
kind to yourself
and others

© 2023 LGjaffe

The Friend

THE FRIEND
My childhood was nothing to talk about
filled with clouds of introspection
and faulty wishes without backbone
I felt small and insignificant.
I wanted to be tall
standing up for myself
not stand out in the crowd
find me through the noise.
There were dreams I forgot to dream
and relevances I found irrelevant
I needed to detach my roots
from the soil of my birth.
-O Joy – O Joy – Life consumes time
and the friend I always sought
stared back at me from the mirror.
© 2023 LGjaffe